I was flipping through my notebook,
and the thing that came to my mind wasn't to study...
I held a pen,
got this really sudden urge to write this down... I know I won't be able to study if I didn't.
So yeah, here I am with my writing mood as I type this. :X

Initially, I don't really even know how I got into kpop.
But I was guessing it was all because of fate...
I was bored and was looking back/reminising and guess what I found out?

My First Ever Korean Song is most probably Haru Haru.
I am gonna remember this for life...
You know what, <u>Haru Haru</u> was one of the few music videos I cried over..
One other memorable but random one is <b> Epik High's Run </b>.
That's another story...
Upon hearing that Haru Haru would be released in Japanese version,
The feeling I felt was indescribable...
I am really glad that this song is so greatly appreciated.
<b>more than 21 million</b> views on youtube.
You know what, when I first saw it on youtube, I think it only had slightly more than 1 million views?

I think it all happened when I was like stilll... 12?
After my first visit to korea or even before that I'm not sure.
I was so young/immature then. (and still am now :b)
I guess I was so silly.
I only liked Bigbang's song/mv. Even watched maple music videos of their songs. Lol.
And so begins my mini VIP side...
Haru Haru... Lies... Always... Sunset Glow? These were the few I really liked then.
and then as time passes,
I lost interest... (yeah I did)
And come to think of it, I was so childish / stupid...
Spare my ignorance~~
Now, after 2-3 years, I came to love bigbang again...
The real bigbang.
Their songs, dance, mvs, album and most importantly... them.
Kwon Jiyong, Choi Seunghyun, Lee Seunghyun, Dong Youngbae and Kang Daesung.
I loved them all, both on screen as idols, and them in real life as normal people.
They seem to be just like like any other idols and I'm like an average fangirl.
But they mean a lot more to me...
I will support them as BIGBANG, as solo artists, as normal people.
At times, I really do feel that BIGBANG holds a significant place in my heart.
So I dare say that I'll be a "VIP until whenever".
Believe it or not, its up to you.

Come to think of it, sometimes, I miss the old bigbang.
I re-fell in love with them while watching their old mvs.
I really love how their old mvs contain a deeper and touching meaning ;~;
Love song and Tonight are really good too...
But take Jiyongie in love song/haru haru as an example.
Knowing him, he would love to smash the car with a hammer or something instead of it falling from the sky... and he would do more than just walk around/dance :/
I'm just saying. I will love them anyways ^^

And during Kpop Night,
as I heard Lies, Always, Haru Haru in real life, it was incredible.
If I were to re-experience it again, I think I would really cry this time.
But anyways, I will be here supporting them!

After reading everything I said... <i>(I'm kimda contradicting sometimes. lol)</i>
You might still think that
yes, this fangirling buisness is just meaningless hopes and wishes.
But to me, it is a great deal lot more..
& I will tell you one thing that I can be sure of,
I will never regret being a fangirl. ♥

So yeahh, that ends it...
My writing bug probably flew away already...
If it comes back, I might write a shawol/sone version? LOLOL.
and woah, I think this is like my longest post since forever :O